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Chloe Sasha's Adventures

In honor of Chloe Sasha

April 21st, 2017 · 6 Comments · Uncategorized

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Two weeks ago I lost my best friend, my furbaby and everyday I get the ache of wanting to hold her. I miss her so much, I miss her fur, her scent, her loving cuddles, her needy ways and the way she loved a dash of my wine.  This is the very last picture we took together on the day she crossed over, we knew it would be our last.

Unfortunately we lost her much quicker than we thought.  She was scheduled for a vet appt on Saturday, April 8th just for my sanity to see her progress because she was not getting up right away when she saw me anymore, she was taking her time and started eating less (though she never said no to treats).  My daughter came home from college on Thursday night, April 6th and I had already started having to help Chloe steady herself to stand when I put her down. On Friday morning, April 7th she started declining. My husband was home because he had just had gall bladder surgery the night before. I was sitting on the sofa with Chloe and wanted to put her down to get my coffee. As I try to let her steady herself, she just collapsed and hit her head on the floor. That’s it! I just lost it! I scooped her up and just started bawling because I knew that she was starting to give up. Her little body was starting to fail her soul. I looked at her eyes and she was saying mama, its time. I understand now what ppl mean when they say, you know. My husband just held us and then went to wake up our oldest and tell her she needs to get up because its time to be with Chloe. She was very upset, saying we promised her the week with Chloe, but it was not something we could do.  At this point we were all emotional. I had to call the vet and tell them that the scheduled appt for the next day was going to be her farewell. That call was extremely difficult. We just held her and talked to her but as the time went on she started laboring in her breathing.  It was obvious she was having difficulty, so I told the family we cannot let her suffer and we should move the appt up earlier in the day. I called again, the dreaded conversation and moved the appt to 8am Saturday.  We continued the day just cuddling her, giving her treats and lots of love and affection.  At 3:30pm I went to pick up my youngest in school, on my way back just 15 mins later my oldest calls me hysterical that Chloe is not breathing well, that at one point she barely could catch her breath. That’s it, I hung up and called the vet from my car and said I needed something today, that I did not want to lose her like this while suffering. They gave me an appt for 5:15pm.  We only had barely 2hrs left to cherish with our girl. My youngest was hysterical in the car, I was a mess, it was just the worst day of my life. I went in and gave them the timeframe and we just all got ready. We set her down next to her brother Bailey so they could get their last good bye and he just sniffed her and licked her head. It was so heartbreaking.  So on Friday, April 7th at 6:20pm my girl crossed the rainbow bridge. I held her through it all and for so long after. I could not tear myself away but alas my husband said we had to let her go, she wasn’t there anymore. I can still feel that entire moment throughout my heart and soul. Its the hardest most difficult experience of my life. I have yet to remove her dog bowls from their spot, her bed.  I sleep with the last shirt she wore under my pillow because I need to smell her essence every morning and every night. I just don’t know when I will be able to move on but it feels like forever.

In honor of my beautiful baby girl, Chloe Sasha I got a small paw print tattoo on my ankle 4 days later.  We shall walk together forever, side by side.

This is the urn we ordered for her. Its beautiful and so perfect on display. She is resting in peace at home where she belongs in her favorite room.

This is Chloe’s space in our favorite room on my bookshelf.  My friend gifted me the frame and statue of angel holding a furbaby.

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6 Comments so far ↓

  • linda8115

    I cry with you today yet again. I love both your tattoo and your words that went with it. Both beautiful! The urn that you chose is also truly special for a truly special girl. Don’t worry about when to pick up her dishes etc. many of us have let our hearts tell us when it’s time. Grieve as long as you need to. To love fully as you did that little Princess surely means you will also need to grieve fully. Sending you hugs ((()))

    • cruzingcruzs

      Thank you! The loss is sometimes not real. At times it’s a huge sadness. Thank you for your kind words.

  • Codie Rae

    I am so, so sorry you have lost your baby girl. Give yourself the room to grieve, the hurt is awful at first but hold on to the fact that it WILL get better in time. Your memorials are lovely–the quote on the urn says it all. She may be gone but your love for Chloe and hers for you will be with you forever. Please know that we totally get what you are going through and are here for you whenever you need us.
    Martha, Codie Rae and the Oaktown Pack

  • benny55

    Soooo sweet, such sweet touching treasures. The memory that will ALWAYS stay with younis a “feeling” thst will never leave you. It’s the warm feeling of love wand the warm smile that comes across your heart whenever you think of Chloe Sasha.

    For yiur daughter, clearly hung on that extra day for her, for your husband and for you. She didn’t need any more time in her failing earth body to feel ove…And to give love. She KNEW she was dearly loved and she knew each of you knew she loved you dearly. The scales were tipping out of her favor quickly and she needed to transition vefore it got worse.

    Chloe Sasha was cherished every moment of her life. And every moment of her life was a lifetime to her……a lifetime of @ove and joy and cuddles and happiness and kisses.

    Thank you for sharing the beautiful ways you are celebrating Chloe Sasha’s life. We look forward to hearing more aboht one of the cutest dogs in the world! Has she sent you a sign yet? She will, pay attention and let us know what it is! She may be too busy frolicking with all of April’s Angels to send you a sign quite yet. My Happy Hannah was an April Angel. She’s in charge of giving all new arrivals bowls of ice cream. I know she had a special tiny bowl for Chloe Sasha!

    A d ih my good ess, the tatoo is lovely! It’s absolutely perfect and will be with you furever…just like Chloe Sasha.

    Lots of love to all

    Sally and My Chunky Spiritual Being Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie

  • jerry

    My heart and condolences are being sent across the miles to you. That IS the worst day ever and I understand how extra difficult it had to have been when trying to explain it all to kids. I’m so sorry.

    I hope Sasha’s beautiful memories with you are lessening the grief just a little. It’s so hard, all it takes to turn tears into smiles is time.

    Everything you did to memorialize your special girl is just gorgeous.

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